:: 26 March 2007 ::
:: 10:11 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
im not that bad right? why he made me me felt that? i know him well more than her knows him well. why he loves her but not me? im not hoping for he together with me. AT least, he still knows that im still in this world. im working hard of it. work hard to forgt him. i had prayed about it and God didnt answer my pray. and yet yesterday pastor told us through speech, if Lord didnt answer your pray, that means you dont need it! is it real? i feel wana fly to in front of Lord and ask Him. why why why? i just couldnt understand it. im much much much better than the girl. im not perasan about it. this is the truth! im better and better! maybe he thinks that im not perfect for him but he is totally perfect for me! WTH!! my heart had broken. now, i can understand whats the meaning of ''shi lian''. the real meaning of it and i had felt it! today my mood was not good, before recess time. i was forcing myself to smile! Lyn kept on said dont make a fake smile. the msg seems had installed it in my mind and i keep on think of it! it makes me couldnt smile. after recess, im much better. at least, i have lots of real smile. im just wanna know why im not the person that u care?! im really not match to your lifestyle? " zhuan shu tian shi " makes me think of it when i listen to this song. im not hapiie at all! =(((( i began to hate you =(((( you had broken my heart =((((( YOU ARE BAD!! =((((
