:: 25 February 2007 ::
:: 8:15 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
hey ya! tomorrow school reopen already. holidays are end. i still have one week time for me to study. i planned a super duper best plan for myself. hope, it works xD. normally what i planned hard to work because of mine laziness. yeah, i admit, i am lazy. no one inspire to study. thats why. haha. really have a bad flu. today i sneezed a lot. sneeze before i start typing. i'm wondering who is talking about me xD. today, didnt go to church. stay at home and dont feel go anyway. finished all the rubbish tuition homework. do and do only. sienz! GOOD NEWS! Wai Kuan got a bf. (shhhhhhh, dont tell anyone! if not, i will kena from her!) his bf. really good. better than last one. at least, this new bf is more caring, more friendly and cheerful. i believe, he will bring lots of happiness to her. damn admire her. at least, she dont like my case. kena hurt and hurt. although he didnt use speaks or actions to hurt me, actually do he know, what he do, what he say, what he write will influence me? i guess, he dont know it. we are not same school. thats why, hardly meet him. so, we use msn or friendster to contact each other. what he have typed, is just breaking my heart. how can he be so cruel?! i guess he dont know. people are blur when they are fall in love. he is. so do i. i dont want know anything about his target! fuck lahx. i'm not bad lahx. i have more confident after i met him. he is the one give me confident! my heart is broke until pieces. he broke it. he stole it. he have made my heart become an ice. and stole it. and now, he gave me back a cold & broken heart. i wanna let him go. i want to do it. if not, i will get hurt more more without his attention. Although i have HURTED by him. i know, i still have to live. so, i must live happily. i dont want my friend ask me :" what happen to you today?" i will never let my friend ask that question. NEVER. because, i dont like that question. i dont know how to answer. i couldnt let myself live in a sad mood right? so, i tell myself i must smile everyday. i LEARN TO SMILE. and i, practicing. at least, half of my smile in one day is real. so, hardly see my sad face. i have learnt how to hide it and use smile to replace it. so, i quite succeed xP. i believe, i can forget him. but, when?? i will him go. but slowly. and everything will become memories. my broken heart will become perfect again. the sadness, will fly away when the wind comes. i dont know will this love become forever. because, i dont dare to say 'forever'. the wind will blow you away. slowly...
p.s : never say 'love you forever'. because you may not love him/her on one day. dont be so confident to yourself.
p.p.s : ka yao, WK. must hapiie. because, you have a good bf. i tested him xD
p.p.s : Gambateh, Jane! let him go! You can do it!
p.p.p.s : i saw a guy when i was shoping with Lyn last week. he is cute. just like him. =[
p.p.p.p.s : i have started my practice to smile to my friends from my whole heart & i have learnt how to hide my sadness. so, Lyn, you can!
p.p.p.p.p.s : a hapiie looks is better than a sad looks. why dont you have a hapiie look all the day?? smile always. someone may fall love in your smile.
:: 24 February 2007 ::
:: 11:45 AM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
hey! hapiie chinese new year! =] hmmmm, my new year. got many angpaus from relative. not much actually. went to Jo Lee's house on thrusday. her house was so beautiful nia. damn admire her. and then, there were also Yew Kuan, Seng Yeang & Wai Kuan. so, we sat there and talked + play cards. no bet no fun. so, i play half way and went off. bluekz! after that, i was bored. sat on the floor and watch anime + hugged a pillow. the anime was very nice. but damn dai gei de. Yew Kuan watched the anime still didnt talk anything. he is really DAO GEI! and, Seng Yeang was like so quiet. kept on sms-ing with someone. dont know who's the someone lehhhx. i guess, is Pei Mun. for sure, he asked her wana go pyramid or not. because we were planned to go pyramid after that. so obvious he likes Pei Mun. and, she also likes him. why dont they admit it? do until so obvious already still dont want to admit it. aikz. if not, our pmo will have another couple already xD til 1 something, Jo Lee wanna go out, so, we went to pyramid lohx. by bus! she didnt tell us she didnt follow us. =.='' damn kek when i heard it. reached pyramid. first thing, we went to cinema there to buy tickets. they wanna watch Ghost Rider wohhx. so, follow them lohx. met Adrian and his friend there when we were que up to buy tickets. so! hahahahaha! Adrian helped us to buy tickets because we were watching the same movie on the same time. so, we watched with them lohx. the movie was quite nice. i like it xD. after that movie, go to Living Cabin and bought Jared's present. a cup. a cute & smile cup. hope he will like it. after that, went to take photo. those machine want de. damn funny when we were taking photos. they... hahahaha. dont wanna type. bluekz! after that, guys said SIENZ, so, they wanna skate. but PM and i didnt go for skate. dont know how to skate xD. after awhile. back home liao. then PM pulak go skate because no one can accompany her. hehe. damn fun de. yesterday, my seniors were came to my house. have fun with them. miss them so much!p.s : afterwards, maybe i will follow my primary school's friends go pai nian! xDp.p.s : at 6pm, go to Jared's party. yeahh!h.a.p.i.i.e.y.a.!!
:: 19 February 2007 ::
:: 8:59 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
hihie =( not really hapiie. having a terrible sick now. fever + sore throat + flu. so bad! i want sick during the school days but not chinese new year! aikz. must be that day. i slept on 4am. lolx. kept on watch tv only. + sms with Cher Ming (superstar. i cried after heard the song ' bu qu ku ' by Des ) lolx. chatting only. till my hp have to charge two times in one day. for sure, i hope the one chatting with til i fall asleep is not them lahx. just that the person is avoiding me. everytime i sms with him, for sure, he will say he is busy. ok. fine! i hope that i'm perasan only. but, dont let me find out, i will have a big fight with him (although he is my special one). the first day of chinese new year. didnt go anywhere. my aunt and her family was in my house. so, cannot go out. after they back, my family and me also balik kampung. at night, 8 something (i think so). we reached there. after have dinner. i straight away lying on the bed and fall asleep. until the next day (today) 10am. waaaaaaaaa. i slept for so long nehhhhx. haha. after that, i felt myself not feeling well. i fall sick. having fever. ok lohx. nvm. i sat on the chair and watch tv til lunch time. lolx. couldnt eat much. everything that i ate is bitter. yucksssss. after that, HEADACHE! cannot tahan. ran to the bed and sleep again. muahahahhaha. then, when i woke up, is time for me to go back home! haha. kept all the thing and went back home. reached home on 6something. quickly on the tv! JJ's CONCERT! oh yeah. have a fight with my brother because he dont let me watch xD after that, online lohx.p.s. : i sat luin with my ji mui together. ( lyn )
:: 17 February 2007 ::
:: 5:52 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
hey =] today, is chinese new year's eve nia. for sure, almost every mother is busying in the kitchen now. example, my mother xD she is busying cooking now. cooking nice food. waaaaaaaa. hungry already. today, didnt have my lunch. lolx. diet xD today, didnt have school. so, i woke up very late. i, woke up at 12. waaaaaa. i slept for almost 12 hours. lolx. hmmmm, my valentine day night. celebrated with my mother. went to ate chicken chop. so nice. yummy~ just top up my phone. i guess, today my phone will ring non-stop. haha. wishes. it mean i still got lots of friends who care me. ok lahx. wana mum mum now.p.s : i want many many angpau! xDh.a.p.i.i.e.c.h.i.n.e.s.e.n.e.w.y.e.a.r
:: 14 February 2007 ::
:: 2:40 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
hei hei. today, is.. Valentine day!! everyone is busying right..?? especially those for those couple. if you're single, better dont go out. afterwards your eyes will become red. haha. so, i stay at home. back from school already. have my lunch already. as usual, i went to school. put down my bag and files. and sit at the respective room. kaka. you know what, today, my friend said that, i have mental problem. i wished all of my friends that i saw today. really. EVERY FRIENDS. kept saying : " hapiie valentines day ohx! " haha.my best friends, lyn and i kept on wishing only. she wish in chinese version, i wish in english version. haha.it was very fun & hapiie. although i'm single, and almost all my friends are single, i hope they will have a special valentine day too. today, i was smiling all the time. i smile when i wish. that kind of feeling, undescribable. and, told you all before. our school have a stall, sell roses and bears for valentine day right? they have helped the students to give to their special one. my class, ke xin & hui mien got present. ke xin got one cutie bear and one beautiful & soft teddy bear. that teddy bear is very cute. nice to hug too. she was so hapiie and curious who is the one gave her. and hui mien's rose, is suet ping gave to her. for fun only. lolx. anyway, lyn also gave chocolates to all her close friends, and of course, included me lahx. but, i have lost the chocolate that she gave to me. lolx. i didnt eat it too!! charm nya~ but, my class, got one guy. he is really really good. he is CHER MING. he bought 5 packets of ferero rocher(forgot the spelling). each packet got three round chocolates. he bought it. and he gave it to all his close friends!! but also included me lahx xD so nice!! really very appreciate him. he always buy many sweets and belanja us. he is so kind person. and, he only have 3 and half years old. he born on 29th of febuary. so charmnya him. pity him. haiz. me also alone nehx. dont have any target also. feel wana get someone. but then nobody want me nehx. aikz. today, will be my lonely day. everyone goes out. sobz. T.T* cher ming, thank you! i promise i will give you birthday present on next year. (next year will have 29days on febuary)* will i have someone in my life? hmph...* will i have suprise today? hmph...H.a.p.i.i.e.V.a.l.e.n.t.i.n.e.D.a.y!!
x.o.x.o
:: 11 February 2007 ::
:: 5:10 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
owhhh~ damn sleepy now lahx. just finish my lunch then feel sleepy already. piggiie me lahx. lolx. just now, i have my lunch with maggie hot cup. no one at home. so, terpaksa eat maggie mee. tastes nice. today, didnt go to church nia. woke up quite late. my breakfast, is chee cheong fun. yummy~ then, watched cartoon xD after that, online lohx. chat with weng fai (my primary school friend) + find the new songs. i'm wondering why is the connection is so slow. arghhh. so, couldnt download any song. but weng fai have sent me those songs that i want xD after that, do my homework. the revision. science form1 workbook. sienz nia. what kinetic energy lahx, potential energy lahx, sulphur dioxide lahx, carbon monoxide lahx, and blah blah blah. i have totally forgot all this. have to do with reference book. then, have my lunch lohx. after that, back to online. replied all the testiies already. then, back to do math workbook. chapter 4. damn sienz lahx. mode, median, mean pulak. thats why i feel sleepy just now. zzzzz. valentine day, still got 3 days. wahhh. so near. the lonely day for me. T.T have to sing the song already. "lonely, i'm mr.lonely, i have nobody, oh haiyo~" lolx. charmnya me. np hp pulak. cannot sms. haiz. just miss my hp lahx.hmmmm, now, what to do nehx. nothing else to do. nvm lahx. i dont have crapz to type also. dont know what to type now. hmmmm.... hmmmm... hmmmm... hmmmmm... ahhhhhx!! now only remember i still got love story book havent read. aiseh! tataz now.*sweets & chocolates & bear are the best present for this coming wednesday =]p.s : will i have a special valentine day of 2007..???
:: 10 February 2007 ::
:: 11:01 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
oh yeah! i just love the song. '' When You Say Nothing At All ". although it is old, but it is still nice~ now, downloading some songs. love songs. sad songs. most of the songs in my playlist is sad song. wonder why am i so love to listen to sad songs. different people different taste uh? hmph... today, most of my friends went to performance. and today, i was skipped the school xD haha. dont feel wanna go to school also. sienz till the max. so, today, woke up late. after woke up, have my breakfast. after that, mummy said wanna go carrefour to buy things for the chinese new year. so, i was followed her and 2 aunties. bought a lots of thing. hehe. but didnt buy the justea drinks. aiseh. i love justea. especially the orange colour, peach + green tea flavour. it tastes so nice~ haha. do you like it? i love it! kaka. talking crapz again. aiseh. my friends lend me a book and i havent read yet. love story. my house does not have any love story book. because, i dont really read them. and i feel that, after i bought it, i will put it at a side. so, what for i buy it, read it, and put it a side? i have no place for it. too many books. that day, my friend let me read a story. it about a guy and a girl (must be lahx. takkan homoseksual mehhx. lolx.) crapz. the guy know the girl through online. then,they fall love to each other, coupled and having much sweet memories. but then because of not studying in the same college. so, they broke. after two years, they coupled again. the story is something like that lahx. cannot write all. there is some interesting part inside. i dont want write it out. just wanna keep it in my heart. just like my feelings toward you, i only can keep in my heart. since i fall love to you, i'm just like a blind girl. i have lost my direction. i can only follow you wherever you go. why i will fall love to you? how can this happen? is this "cuo ai"? anyone can tell me that my feelings toward you is love or like? i'm confused.p.s. : will anyone come to open my stucking heart?
:: 08 February 2007 ::
:: 2:41 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
hihie =] hmmm, now i'm listening to 988, because, my radio was rosak, the online radio pulak cannot load, dont know why. Leehom's song, gao shi ying xiong. his songs are nice. and, his concert is coming nehhx. third of march. i think i have chance to watch. Kenn, one of my friend, ask me that whether i wana go or not if he have extra tickets. oh yeah~ hope the 'if' will become reality. actually, before i know JJ, i admires Leehom. he is wonderful singer, great composer. his concert, is worth to waste your time to watch. really. his singing is wonderful. a nice voice, a gentleman face. almost perfect. BUT THEN, since i met JJ, JJ is more perfect than him. JJ is an angel. he has a angel of voice, his singing is perfect, a cute + leng zai face, not too tall and not too short. he is totally perfect. no one can replace him. i cant believe that he is perfect. he is my angel. thats why, i loves him so much. muahahahaha. Valentine day, what should i do on that day? morning, go to school. afternoon, after back from school, do homework if got lahx, online. night, no tuition, so i have time to relax. mother goes out with aunties to celebrate. for sure, my two brothers will go out pak toh with their gf. me? alone at home. damn, what i have typed just now gone! maybe is too long. nvm lahx, those are crapz.
huggies and kisses.
:: 04 February 2007 ::
:: 5:46 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
hei! back to blog again. that day, i was too angry about that person, seems i wrote till that person so bad uh/? lolx. anyway, he is really bad. not bad, is terrible!! ok, i have out of topic already, dont want talk about him anymore. hmmm, yesterday saturday, it was merentas desa, known as cross country. haha. a tired day nia. girls were required to ran for 5 km and boys were required to ran 8km. that day, i was ran with ah lyn, my bez friend. i was ran so fast. that day, i was moody, and not really hapiie. i had won her, i ran faster than her, and of course i had won myself too. ^^ this prove that i'm not that bad! at least, i run faster than her. after the race, i was so hapiie. muahaha. so, today, at least i can smile a bit. ok lahx, dont want talk about those bad & sad thing. aiya, what i want to write already ahx? i forgot already nehhx. ok lahx. stop here already.xoxo~
:: 01 February 2007 ::
:: 6:07 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
I hate you, bitch! ops, ya not a girl, cannot be a bitch! stupid! i hate you! why are treating me in that way?! and let me found out by myself!! i hate this!! if you dont like me, straight away tell me! not hide yourself or force yourself to treat me good and pretend nothing happen!! i dont want it! just straight away tell me!! cant you do that?! is not hard to do that!! it wont hurt me!! but then it is hurting me when i found out by myself!! i'm hurt, sad, disappointed!! how can you treat me in this way?! i thought of i'm one of close person to you and you really treat me a important person to you!! now only i know i was totally wrong!! i was totally stupid!! how can you hurt me like that?! i'm a girl, not a guy!! you are a guy and thought of this way may not hurt me but you are totally wrong!! I'M GIRL!! A GIRL THAT EASILY GET HURT!! i hate you!! somemore i treat you as one of the close person to me, even closer than my family!! and i have treated you as one of my family, one of the important person, one of the person i cares of, one of the person i love!! but then, how you treat me?! you are totally hurt my heart!! alright, i know you didnt love me, i have accepted this, and i only treat you as one of the close friend that i have. and, what you have did to me?! i'm a human!! i'm a living things!! i hate you!! you are a cold-blooded person!! i dont want see you anymore!! i know you may have read this, dont ask me who is the person, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!! don't let me saw you anymore, if not, i will kill you!!
:: 2:01 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
hei! seems long time i didnt update my blog uh? very busy nowadays. busy of homeworks, tuition & school. haiz. this is, school life. today, first of febuary. time had past one month. valentine day, coming also. fast right? time just flies fast, without your attention. still have 13 days till valentine day. everyone is busy picking the present or sakit kepala dont know what to give right? almost everyone lahx. i heard man people told me that. dont know what to give. none of my business also right? i have no experience in it, because, i never experienced it before. just like my two brothers, always going out with friends. most of the time, i know, they wana find a good & nice present to their gf. i knew it. why is the time fly so fast uh? after valentine day, chinese new year pulak coming. get angpau! oh yeah~ so hapiie. but then, i dont think this year i will be hapiier. but at least better than last year, stay in hospital during the new year. charm nya~ after new year, exam pulak coming. so, i have to study study study during the new year. BUT! after the exam, holidays pulak. one week holidays. i have time to rest! oh yeah~ and, i'm going to a trip too. with the pmo members. oh yeah~ im sure this trip will be fun. haha. aiyo, today, is thaipusam nehhx. it is so quiet. peace~ make me feel sleepy. actually today supposed to go out and buy new clothes. but then, morning got one tuition, for the replacement, and night got a tuition, for the replacement too. so kua joing! dizzy already. going to faint~love :*true love doesnt has an ending..
*many say such thing is impossible, but i say when there is love there are always miracles..
*the most lonely place in the world is when love is absent from the human heart..J.a.n.e
