不能说的秘密 - Jay Chou

冷咖啡离开了杯垫 我忍住的情绪在很后面

拼命想挽回的从前 在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天 是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

回忆的画面 在荡着秋千 梦开始不甜

* 你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远

又何必去改变 你走过的世界

你用你的指尖 阻止我说再见

想象你在身边 在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远

或许命运的签 只让我们遇见

只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天

飘落后才发现 这幸福的碎片 要我怎么捡

im sad .
so what ?
will you care ?
no you wont !
i hate you !
i know that will happen .
but this is not the time !
i need time to recover .
i cannot have this kind of mood to go for my exam .
but it isnt your wrong ...
is fair ...
i dont even what i want from you ..
who can help me...
no .. no one ..
maybe i will feel better if i cry ..
but , no tear ...
is time to let go ...
sarang hae yo ........

p.s. : im not emo . my mind is still clear and i know what am i doing now . sometimes , i just need time to accept it . slowly .

gosh, im sick now!
today i was so moody because fever.
i felt my body so warm although i was sitting under the fan.
but after i had slept for a while during the english paper1,
i felt better.
i was ok a bit after recess.
long time i didnt fall sick already.
feel myself so blur when im sick.
i hate fever!

concert!!!

PMO Concert = Butterfly lover

well, today was installation 2007. actually it was quite succeed. but i still dont satisfy it. my group was G. form5 senior was Yew Kuan = dao gei king. haha. group name was God & Ghost. lolx. i created! actually the name was quite weird. but then, you know de lahx, kong lai yee wohx, what she thinks also weird and always out of your expect de. haha. swt. every year, the game was trying to make us tired. ran from east to west, here and there. half way, i had stopped to play because i needed to do the ice kacang. as you all know, my work was ice kacang. at the first, SH had forgotten to bring the ice blender and we only have one blender. but, we didnt blame her. everyone will do mistake, right? but luckily lulu! she has ice blender. but it didnt help us. the ice that blended wasnt look nice. so, we only use the blender that Jo Er's. aikz. at the first, we had prepared all the seniors' ice kacang. but none of juniors came to order. when we wanted to rest, suddenly a group of juniors asked for it. lolx. busy til we couldnt feel the hungry already.
AND AND AND, suddenly, the blender cannot blend. rupa rupanya, the machine was too hot and must let it cool down first. lolx. what a "cute" blender. and now, we left many thing. red beans, corns, syrup, AND ICE~ too much already. i had told them no need to buy so much but they dont want to listen to me. since i wasnt in charge of that and i had given my advice, if they dont agree with me, i cannot do anything right. today, actually i can be very hot-tempered. because, everything didnt go well like what i have expected. but, i had controlled myself until very well! oh yeah! i only scolded sth about jo lee when there was no one. she ran away when we were cleaning everything. ok nvm. she had did a lot of thing. but, when we had finished everything, she was still disappear! so, i went to find her. she was talking to her bf. what the?! she doesnt want to care all the thing and she ran away to accompany her bf?! for sure, will you angry? = = ok, but everything is over now. i didnt complain anything, i just comment about the whole lunch time. after that, "crying section". every year for sure we will cry like mad. but this year was so different. i didnt drop any tear! actually their speeches werent that touch. not many people cry. wasnt like last year, i cried like mad. so hard to stop. haha. the slide show were so funny. haha. but, this year installation was totally different from last year.

p.s. : when i was form1 and form2 on installation day, i had cried a lot. but this year, not even one drop of tears. cannot named as "crying section" already.

i copied from lulu~ let you all know more about 3b3. =]

1)who sits next to you ?
- lyn. always. except i change my place during rizal's period. recently is ah loong. we have lots of topics to talk. ^^

2)who's in front of you?
- jonathan. haha.

3)who's on your left ?
- lulu~! XD

4)who's on your right ?
- lyn~

5)who are your best friends with in class ?
- ping, loong, lulu, dan, lyn.

6)who's the sporting girl in your class ?
- ke xin. she hardly get hurt by en.lim's joke.
(lulu, sporting in this ques was meant = da fang)

7)who's the sporting guy in your class ?
- khoo. guess so.

WHOS THE ..
8)most shy?
- i guess, no one?

9)cutest guy?
- cheng yeh! he looks blur! haha

10)cutest girl?
- lyn!

11)prettiest?
- as what lulu said. we never discuss about leng lui. only leng zai. XD
everyone is pretty in this world wert...

12)MOST annoying?
- not really. all classmates are nice~

13)Funniest?
- jonathan = so lou! XD

14)Your fav teacher ?
- yeoh bee bee. actually she is a nice teacher. respect her, class!

15)Fav subject ?
- hmmmm.. dont have. lolx.

16)Whos the class monitor ? hows she/he ?
- popiah chan. responsible! nice! perasan king!

17)Whos the asst. monitor ? howsshe/he ?
- ke xin. noisiest in the class. haha

18)Your class is
- lovely. because of them, i have a good reason to smile always and no need to make fake smiles.

19)Do you love your class ? why ?
- yeah. no reason. do we need reason to love someone? : )
i love the way they are.

ok. i got a lot of thing to blog. its about last wednesday.
went to school for miss poon's extra class. reached there at 7am. have to tumpang my mum;s car because no one can fetch me. sat at the kanna there to wait lyn wei. i dont dare to walk into the school. so dark~ (i scare of dark!) i sat at the last table there to do workbook. i had waited 1 hour. = = lyn wei was late. nvm. walked into school. the science lab only has 3b2 students. only got both of us are from 3b3. miss poon was teaching them the chapter8. sienz. she was like repeating everything. i wonder why the teachers have the patient to teach the same thing to students. haha. we had ran away when miss poon gave us break. went to amcorp mall. walked and walked. the cinema has closed. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhx. cannot watch movie. aiseh. nothing to do. i was kept on talked crapz only. after that, went to mcd to have lunch. saw band members. after that we walked back to school. saw lyn wei's parents. her parents were so cute. haha. ok. thats all about that day. nothing much. : )

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhx!
what a bad day. i want to shout everything in my blog now.
if you want to know how bad luck was i today, read it. if not, ignore it. =)

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ok. start from morning. today, i needed to go to school. have to do present for all the seniors. i had set alarm at 7 am. arghhh. when i heard the alarm was ringing, i woke up, and off it, AND SLEPT BACK! haha. lolx. at the end i cannot wake up. i only woke up when the aunt came to fetch me. i missed the car. so, i asked my brother to fetch me. he was mumbling this mumbling that. because, i had woke him up. = = he DOESNT WANT TO FETCH ME. what the?! he would fetch me if he wants to! gave me lots of reasons and excuses. what a lame excuse, he said, traffic jam ahx! = = i called my mother to fetch me. and, he started to mumbling me again. he said everyone no need to work and blah blah blah. he thought that i dont know all this? i must go! because i needed to do all the presents. he thought that i love school so much and make troubles for them. i want to sleep at home, study at home, if i can ! arghhhh !!! and, he fetched me to my mother's office. needed to wait her finished her work. on the way to school, she was mumbling also. haiz. suddenly talked about manners pulak. swt ! i didnt talk, from my kor fetched me to my mum's office until i reached school. because, i dont know how to answer them. if i answer them, for sure they will say i start to yell. so, silence is the best!

when i reached school, started to do do do. went to amcorp mall to buy colour paper. we did a lot of thing today. this badge of form 5 was so bertuah. we did nice present for them, cook nice foods for them. im sure everything will go smoothly on installation day. when i was doing the present on the half way, suddenly my phone was ringing. my mum ! she had forgotten she no need to fetch me! arghhhh. at the end, i had followed my mum's car backed home. luckily, she didnt get mad. hehe. see, im so bad luck. i was so blur. blur blur blur. blur-ness kills me a lot.

p.s. : wednesday = go back to school again. go for miss poon's extra class.
firday = installation day. i will make ice kacang for everyone. i can make for you all if you want to. dont worry, the ice kacang can be eaten. haha.

im ponteng-ing pmo meeting now. haha. shhhh! i lied that i have thing to do cannot stay back. they want to discuss about the installation and yet im so tired, want me to fall asleep during the meeting? i guess i will do that if i stay back. hehe. last wednesday morning, i woke up at 3am to study sejarah, because i want to the workbook. guess what, i had fallen asleep. XD i had fallen asleep after i read one chapter. haha. until i heard my mum's alarm clock rang, i woke up and pretend reading. muahahaha. stayed back to watch our class english debate. kesian them. dont want to talk about them, werent their fault, the dont have experience. and, prasanth is really a good speaker. i guess they are debating now. SHAUN VS PRASANTH.

thrusday, i stayed back to watch [ratatouille]. i had lied to my mother. felt so guitly. i had lied that i stay back to discuss the installation day. and, the movie was around 2 hours. i had rushed back to school because my mother had came already. the taxi driver was so cool. i guess he knew that im in hurry and he drove very fast. THANK GOD! i reached there within 10 mins. and! my mum didnt check on me. she didnt suspect anything. muahaha. when we were on the way back, she asked me why i didnt answer her call. i lied again and said i didnt go to mid valley, i was in the curry house with my friend. oh shit! i felt so guitly. if my mum really come and check on me, i may probably die already. she trusts me. she believes what i say. if she knows that i lie to her, she may not let me go out anymore. THANK GOD! phew~ night, did 12 cards for seniors. messages that we want to tell them. i did it from 8 to 12. and yet i havent finish it. luckily today lyn, lulu and dan dan helped me tied ribbon and i managed to finish it. too bad, i didnt take picture on it. the cards are really beautiful. and, today i woke up at 5 to do math workbook. woohoo~ i managed to wake up! haha. slept late and woke up early. feel that im crazy. lolx.

today, kesian lyn. she was so so so so wet. she got many presents from her friends. AND, I DIDNT BRING HER PRESENT. lolx. i remembered it when i was reached the school. haha. after school, we sang birthday song to her and pour water on her. another version of "ke xin". but then, suddenly wong weng yan came. normally no prefects will pass by and today, she suddenly appeared in my class. she had written down lyn's name. hope that something will not happen. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

p.s. : i had realised i had treated some people badly lately. sorry! i dont mean to do that. i promised i will treat you all as usual.

is that real?
all i had thought in these while are wrong?
im too sensitive?
guess so...


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let me name the person as M. she is a clever girl. she good in everything she does. currently, or i should say it had started since this year? i couldnt communicate with her. i dont know whether she had turned bad or i had turned bad. both of us couldnt talk for long. for sure we will fight because of something we are talking. why uh? is my problem or her problem? i really cannot stand for long already. i rather to be silent than talk to her. i dont want to fight. i hate to fight. fight can spoil everything just in one second! why why why? every time she is like, want to find something to fight with me. thats what i feel in these while. she doesnt understand me. she doesnt know how i feel. since this year, i have this kind of feeling towards her. is that i had turned badly? or.... actually not only her, is the whole gang. every time when i have a topic to talk with them, they will suddenly turn into very angry voice to talk to me. then i ask them why are they so kek/? you know what they answer me? they say : the question you ask is so "mo ming qi miao". (i dont know it in english) WHAT IS GOING ON?! im not emo. just that i didnt expect it will become more serious and more.

p.s. : do not comment other people so often. especially about bad thing. you are actually hurting them. do care other people's feelings.

p.p.s. : appreciate what you have now. learn how to satisfy what you have and dont ask for more so often. actually your life may better than other people much much more.

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala.
too much thing to blog. dont know where to start. ok. i have a topic already. lets talk about this week. this week was super suck. the whole week time i used to do stupid flasher's seni folio. i woke up at 4 am everyday to do homework. I AM LACK OF TIME!!! wednesday, encik lim let our class to watch a video. lolx. that video was horrible. not going to say about the video because it was so scary. i can just shout very loudly after watched the video. thank to MR.LEONG. he asked me not to shout. lolx? swt swt swt. yucks. off this topic. didnt go for practice on this saturday. i have too much of thing to do. AGM was held. new committees were selected. kinda suprise. our new leader, is a guy. i have no time to say about him. next post lahx. i guess, installation is on next saturday. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhx. ok lahx. nothing to blog already. going to wake up at 4 am in the morning everyday to do homework. recently, i like to use my fingers to make a shot gun to shot other people. the person who got shot by me, surely have good mood in that day. so, do you want me to shot you? hahahahahahaha.

p.s. : trial exam!!!!! monday have perarakan about the merdeka and bm gerak gempur! X.X

i want to record every moment that is special to me. so, im here now. im tired now. aikz.

-last day-
morning, when i was on the way to school, i heard a song which made me felt happy on the whole day. [ s.h.e - zhen me ban ] so cute. i was smiling to myself when the song was playing. haha. after school, lyn and i walked to pmo there to put our books. met Weil Shern. pity him. people bu shuang him without any reason. then, walked to bus stop. saw Hui Tien at outside of perfect room. talked to her for awhile. she was complaining about her class. after that, ran to bus stop because it was rainy. while we were waiting for the bus, met louise and talked with her. she was holding the book, HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHY HALLOWS. ahhhhhhhhhx! i saw harry potter at everywhere. even in the bus. = = when we reached mid valley, rushed to the cinema there to buy tickets. the simpsons movie. got student price + that day was wednesday. muahahahahaha. i only paid for rm6. after that, we went to dunkin donut to have our lunch. their donuts taste nic and expensive. haha. went to the cinema by lift. because we were late for the show already. the time was gam gam hou. when we went in, the show was just started. sat down and started to eat the popcorn that i bought. the movie was really nice and funny. after movie, rushed back to school because lyn's father had came already and, she didnt tell her father that she went to mid valley.

-today-
kh periods. we baked chicken pie. the chicken pie tasted very nice and i love it so much. hehe. louise and i were planned to bake the chicken pie again at her house after pmr. after recess, i was totally no strength at all. tried to do that stupid seni lakaran. I HATE YOU, FLASHER!!! encik rizal got mad during his period. im wondering what ying hau did to him until he wanted to hit ying hau. i cant fall asleep during his period. he was so noisy. arghhhh. after that, chaned my place to ke xin's place. her place was so nice. an idoit wanted to kill me when covered my face with curtain and tried to sleep. lolx. after that, changed my place to cheng yeh's place because encik lim wanted to start his "lesson" [story]. finally, i fell asleep. haha. and jonathan woke me up. he kacau me until i woke up. he took my bag away since rizal's period. he only returned me when sejarah period. lolx. my bag got that nice to ''bei''? (i cant think of any english word can replace it. my english isnt that good)

i like my eyes and my sixth sense( we called it zhi jue in chinese ). i can see my many thing through my eyes. haha. currently, i get many chances to know many thing about my class. there are many lovers in my class. especially, lyn. haha.

p.s. : i will never drink coffee anymore!! i couldnt sleep after i had drank it. and today, i was so hot tempered. sorry if i had treated you badly.

J A N E..K O N G..L A I..Y E E

: in love with Jesus
: music freak
: 30% quiet + 70% noisy
: always try to be nice and smile to everyone , i try hard and hard !
: love pooh & penguin
: hate hot weather , alcohol drinks , drug , smoker

desires
: new sling bag
: new camera
: new phone
: new mp3 player
: meet Jj
: Jj's albums
: more clothes
: more As in PMR
: change new spec
: Get into same class with Lyn
: Get closer to all my friends

current mood
: new year !
: school !!