just visited all my friends' blog. quite a lot thing they had updated. haha. last day of april. i have to say goodbye to april already. MAMA! one month had past! oh no! pmr is coming lahx. and i rush out of time already. i have a lot of thing to do. exam is coming soon too. started prepared already, for some subjects only.

and, I HAVE FINISHED MY SEJARAH PROJECT AND I HAD PASSED UP! im hapiie with it. haha. i used 1 day to finish it de lehx. i didnt go anywhere, even church. stay at home and kept on writting. haha. im proud of it. muahaha. it made me realised one thing. i have to work hard on one thing and i will get good result. haha. my laziness kill me. always. dont want sleep, dreaming, watch tv. i always waste my time. haha. *sounds i so hapiie pulak! paiseh paiseh.*

today, actually dont want go to school de. but at the last, i went to school. it was rainy when i was going back home. i kena rain. again and again. i have to run here run there to find auntie's car. -.-ll then, on the way back home, traffic jam. i had felt asleep in the car. haha.


kao mang!!! many people were born in this month lahx. many people! today his birthday, tmr her birthday blah blah blah. aikz! im brokeeeeeeeeeee!

p.s. : birthday birthday birthday.............................

well. im still online. although it is late of night. ( for my mother but not me xD ) the thing between sue ann and dan dan havent over yet. maybe, it just too hard for sue ann to forgive briana. is sue ann's own problem. her heart is stucking and she couldnt find the way out. thats why. teenagers are like that. you will do everything that you will never do when you lost yourself. i think, sue ann, she needs time. briana did many wrong things. example, she shouldnt treat sue ann in that way. sue ann treats her so good. because of her, her relationship between sue ann and her is getting worse. and, she should use a way that can make people forgive her. a special way. maybe that way may not special. but it can cure the hurt. if you want other people treat you nice, you should treat other people nice first. you will get back everything in the way how you treat other people. i always believe it. it is true.

today, joanna, louise, huei mien, ying ran and me went to CF activity. ( i forgotten the spelling of the activity X.X ) it was fun, meaningful, enjoyable. you will regret if you didnt go. they had invited a pastor, Ruben pastor ( if im not wrong ). he talked a lot about friend. he used cola can to describe human. you dont need a person who only because of your external. if that person, is your real friend, he/she doesnt want you to change yourself. he/she likes the way you are, and accept your everything. what the pastor said was really really true. another experience that i gained today. i can use it to help my friends. quite happy with it. although im late to pmo practice.

dear sue ann, i hope you read this. im not lieing de. i really really wanna help you. you do not lose any friend. you still have me. maybe you are not trust at me, but im willing to help you. i swear i didnt lie! you are just need someone to talk with, someone to open your heart, someone to pull you up from the darkness. i hope you will find that person as soon as possible. life is suffering with friends. your smile has been lesser already. dont be so sad lahx k? call or msg me if you want to. 0166558173. i will always be there for you. im not just say this that only, i will action if you let me to. i am willing to help you.

p.s. : every hurt need time to cure.

i saw sue ann's, joanna's, louise's blog. i think i got the main point. im not sure about it. they have relationship problems. it makes me think about last year. i couldnt forgive myself about it. i cant. i accidentaly pop it out. im not purposely. i swear! i still remember, that time sue ann and yue vern were asking me about that thing when we at dewan kuliah during taklimat. oh gosh, i didnt get the main point that they are asking about thats why i said "no". after a while, i only realised what they were asking about. i really felt bad about it. til now. i swear about it! im not lieing. sorry, the word that i can only say. is ok if she dont want to forgive me. if i were her, i may not forgive that person too. SORRY. is that ah dan that bad? is real? all she does is fake? i had treat her as one of my close friend already. about that conteng thing, i agree with sue ann, she did it. in front of my eyes. i saw it. oh no, who can tell me the truth? is dan fake? no idea.

secondly, i heard a dialogue between her and X. during the pmo practice.
her : help me to listen ya! * silently *
X : i couldnt hear anything lahx!
her : oh gosh! *she put her hand on her forehead*

what theeee!! after i heard that, i can feel the hotness surrounded me. hope what i heard was wrong.

ok.. i had my performance on saturday, majlis anugerah. it was successful. thank God for it. =]


p.s. : i cant forgive myself.

hmmmm. since i have long time didnt update my blog already. sienz. dont feel wanna blogging. lolx. hmmmm. where do i start lehx? last monday, me, Jane, kena tangkap by discipline teacher. haha. first time in this year lehx. since i had long time didnt kena from discipline teacher already. i kena because i didnt follow my class line to go back to my class. and the discipline teacher thought i ponteng assembly. lame reason right? -.- but, not only me lahx. got khoo, triple Y, lyn and others lahx. didnt kena anything also. the discipline teacher asked us standed at outside of discipline room form 2 period only. nothing de. i thought she wants to put our name in black list tim. cehhhh~
nexttt, what am i gonna write lehhhx? hmmmm. ok. last saturday i had went to pmo practice. first time in this month. because of some reasons lahx.they practice the song, liang zhu. so, when they he zhou, i went to another room there practice by myself. i try to avoid myself from her. because, i couldnt face her. i was like lost all my strength when i saw her. scaryyy. there was a small guan mo hui on that day. that actually considered as performance lahx. i didnt perform. because, i cannot do it. i felt so bad when they asked me why im not in there. because, that performance was performed by all dan po members. and, im one of it. i really i really wana come out from it. i couldnt be myself, couldnt show my own character in pmo. so, i decided wanna quit after the concert. but lyn said im stupid. because, since i had put so many effort into it, why i still wana quit? lolx. still have three months go to concert. ka yaooo lahhhhx. and, i have performance on anugerah day which on this saturday. arghhh. needa memorize the song and i havent memorize it. lolx. hope everything will go smooth lahx. and! i realised one thing. siow hoe, which is one of the ajk pmo, he is scary! he can talk softly like a sheep. he can fierce like a tiger. couldnt find the real of him. lolx. dont want go nearer to him. he made me scared of him. shhhhh! dont tell anyone. xP
next, my class. haha. a dao gei class. there will be many handphones if got sport check in my class. everyday they bring their handphones to school. and, let my classmates use their phone. nowadays the most popular was the quara pop. the game that you can only find in sony ericson phones. it kinda fun de. train your brain xD. last friday was louise's birthday. i had pour water on her. whole bottle. haha. she kena chalks and duster too. my class is really fun. everyday play only. most of them have no limits when they play. so, easily to make other people angry. and, science, we had learnt til chapter 4, reproduction. haha. so funny lahx. especially khoo and anslem. khoo made those noise made us laugh. anslem pula asked those weird question. haha. and miss poon was like experienced before. taught us this that like a woman who had married xD. the bm teacher, mohd rizal. finally i remember his name. lolx. he sucks lahx. dont know how to teach de! i feel suffer when he is teaching. lolx. he makes me feel sleepy. lolx.
nextt, recently i like to listen to slow songs. like, pretty boy, the day you went away, zhuan shi tian shi and ai cuo. those sad songs lahx. their lyrics are meaningful. like pretty boy, " oh my pretty pretty boy i love you like i, never ever loved no one before you, oh pretty pretty boy of mine, just tell me you love me too, oh my pretty pretty boy i need you, oh my, pretty pretty boy i do, let me inside, make me stay, right beside you... " lam hor? guys, if you sing this song to a girl, the girl may feel touch xD. i sang the zhuan shu tian shi everyday in class, till dan also knew how to sing although she didnt hear before. haha. geng lehhx. outside is rainy now. best time to sleep. i realised i can write many things especially when i am alone in house. i had started study. xD. tomorrow needa paku the kayu. kao mang! T.T i hope i can get the cable soon.

p.s. : i cannot be so emotional anymore. i wanna do best in everything i cant! oh yeah~ =))

yooooo! hehe. feel tired now nehx. today, i went to Amazing Race. My team members were Cher Ming, Lyn and me, team leader was Jared. haha. it was quite fun lahx. although we felt that not enough fun. the first mission was finding all places. list all the name. only at school. after that, our journey were started! haha. our first destination were gasing hill. you know what, we walked to there, from school. xD. im proud of it. and then, we still needed to go into the hill. we walked and walked, climbed and climbed. the road was very slippery. i almost felt down nehhx. i realised one thing. my stamina is weak. im almost fainted when reached pondok. i quickly walked and lying at the pondok there. phewww~ i had the rest. after Jared got the clue, we went down from the hill. next destination was school. we have to go back to school and posed some sexy pose. oh nooo! i couldnt imagine the pose. paiseh paiseh. after that, we ran to taman jaya. choose braverly or brain. wah sai. we chosen the wrong one and we were late! arghhh. the sudoku was very hard. at the end, Cher Ming went to braverly there. we were required to take 5 one cents. after that, we ran to sport centre. oh no! damn hard lahx. we were lying down our team members leg for 3 mins. aiyo. i knew it. we were failed. haha. because, the person who lying down on my legs was cher ming. so, you sayyy lehhhx? lolx. next destination, UM. we needed to swim! luckily got the two guys. haha. they swam and kayak to get next clue. after that, we ran out and got taxi. there was very hard to get taxi. not many cars was passing by. but, at the end we got the taxi too. we went to old town pj. arghhhh. i will never forget this part. we needed to find a person who wearing red cap. at the first we found the person already. but then he dont want to admit he was the agent. we found him for 1 hour++. damnn lahx. arghhh. i was ran there ran here like a sopo. at last, we got the clue and got taxi to go back school. my heart was very pain when i breathe nehx. sobz. like a person got heart attack. we went back to school and learnt to make roti canai xD. Cher ming and Jared made it. and we have to eat 3 roti canai. after that, we went to the place where nearby bengkel kayu there. WE HAVE TO DRINK A WEIRD DRINK. wahsaiiii! garlic+ginger+veggies. yuckkks. i had drank once only. and i felt wanted to vomit after a while. just like shittt! the smell was so strong. yucksssss! and, our journey were finished. hehe. so tired mannn! after had enough of resting. lyn, sheng hoay and i went to old town to eat ais kacang. actually i was quite full de. but the ais kacang is too nice. haha. and now, i didnt take a nap. i feel so tired lahhx. long time didnt exercise xD. just ate pizza for my lunch+dinner. ok lahx. quite long already. tataz.

p.s. : had lots of fun with them. haha. thanks. ^^

p.p.s. : Jared hates Kenn a lot. Let me advise you one thing. try to look at the the person's positive side, but not negative side. =]

[ 17 signs when euu fall love to someone ]


SEVENTEEN:
YOU LOOK AT THEIR PROFILE/PICTURE CONSTANTLY

SIXTEEN:
WHEN YOUR ON THE PHONE WITH THEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, YOU STILL MISS THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.

FIFTEEN:
YOU READ THEIR TEXTS or SMS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

FOURTEEN:
YOU WALK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'RE WITH THEM.

THIRTEEN:
YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU'RE/THEY'RE AROUND.

ELEVEN:
WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEARTBEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME TIME

TEN:
YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE.

NINE:
WHEN YOU lOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE IS HIM//HER.

EIGHT:
YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS,WHILE THINKING OF THEM

SEVEN:
THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.

SIX:
YOU GET HIGH JUST FROM THEIR SCENT.

FIVE:
YOU REALlIZE THAT YOU'RE AlWAYS SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM.

FOUR:
YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.

THREE:
WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON IN YOUR MIND.

TWO:You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve was missing.

ONE:You just scrolled up to check & are now silentely laughing at yourself.

arlozzz! today is good friday lehhx. hehe. puasa the whole day. xD
dan! i will never forget what u have did to me on thrusday.
haha. anyway, it was fun xD
new skin. i made it. how?
the poohs are cute right? haha.
i love poohhhh!

ahhhhhhhhx. sienz-ness. im alone in the house again. tomorrow got pmo practice. how? i dont want to face her. im scared my tears will drop because of it. help me, God! im so emoooo now. i havent take my bath yet. i feel tired and i want to sleep. i must tahan til night. because, i couldnt sleep at night if i take nap in the afternoon. eyes are getting smaller. i have no strength to hold myself now. i began to hate myself. everything happens made me couldnt breathe. i wanna let go everything. EVERYTHING. if god let to. sigh. i need usb infared lahx. aikz. hapiie a bit bahhh. everything will ok. i am just talking crapz. writting crapz.

p.s. : anyone can help me to get the usb infared for k500i? i want it.

p.p.s. : i love being in b3. i have no problem in my class. thats why im so hapiie in the class. =]

nah nah nah. update lahx. satisfy? lolx. i cannot on often lahx LEONG YIN WEI. i'm not like you dont have tuition lahx. the reason why i go for tuition is because i dont feel study in school. especially when i dont like the teacher. thats why i need tuition. haha. thats why i always sleep in the class and dont pay attention. kaka. argghhh. my purata is low lahx. im not satisfy with it. yeah i knew. the marks that i got is the effort that i put in. so, i decided, start study from today. work hard for it. because second exam is on may. T.T quite fast lahx. time fly fast. i got all the results. bm, moral & kh are the the worst. because, i didnt really read them xD. i am proud of my english. i got an A. hehe. first time nehx! =] other subjects are okok. aikz. got lots of projects lahx. i got the chance to online because i want to find the details for sejarah. i will not start the geograph so fast. kh kayu pulak coming. i hate kayu! i dont like to saw. can anyone help me? T.T 2nd of April is our class 3b3, tomato's birthday! the person who blush until the face looks like a tomato and like to eat popiah -- Anselm. haha. he kena my water! oh yeahh~ today, was sukan tara for hijau. and i got pmo practice too. i skipped both. i dont want go sukan tara because it was very hot! pmo pulak... i dont why. i dont feel wana stay at pmo. i hope they will kick me out. kick this rubbish away from it. i cannot tahan anymore. i just cannot see her face. i really feel sad about it. all the day. from the day she didnt treat me as her junior. haiiiiz. long long story. i will expose everything in my blog on friday. my heart have not enough of place for it. is too heavy for me carry everyday. I AM JUST A WEAK GIRL. i have carry the problem for many many months already. im scared i will fall down on one day. kao mang! just now i was arguing with mama. she said my hearing got problem and always ' fa bi qi '. where got?! just that sometimes ' yu qi zhong le '. i didnt meant it. blah blah blah. i realise she likes to scold me in these few days. and i have no mood to answer it. -.- i knew! because, no one is at home! only ME! zzz. i hope i can stay in 3b3 for 24 hours. because, i only can be myself when i am in class with my friends. who can open my heart? feel wana cry. but i dont want to. bluekz. sounds 'mao tun'. i must be strong! 'jian zi' in everything! yeah! this is Jane. lolx. ahhhx. anyone started sejarah project? can give me details? thanksss. my eyes is dropping and getting smaller. tataz lohx. nitez =]

[[ bm : 57 moral : 41 kh : 54 sej : 73 sc : 68 bc : 67 bi : 79 math : 80 geo : 60 ]]

p.s : hapiie hapiie ^^

J A N E..K O N G..L A I..Y E E

: in love with Jesus
: music freak
: 30% quiet + 70% noisy
: always try to be nice and smile to everyone , i try hard and hard !
: love pooh & penguin
: hate hot weather , alcohol drinks , drug , smoker

desires
: new sling bag
: new camera
: new phone
: new mp3 player
: meet Jj
: Jj's albums
: more clothes
: more As in PMR
: change new spec
: Get into same class with Lyn
: Get closer to all my friends

current mood
: new year !
: school !!