:: 25 February 2007 ::
:: 8:15 PM ::
♥ Hate that I love you ♥
hey ya! tomorrow school reopen already. holidays are end. i still have one week time for me to study. i planned a super duper best plan for myself. hope, it works xD. normally what i planned hard to work because of mine laziness. yeah, i admit, i am lazy. no one inspire to study. thats why. haha. really have a bad flu. today i sneezed a lot. sneeze before i start typing. i'm wondering who is talking about me xD. today, didnt go to church. stay at home and dont feel go anyway. finished all the rubbish tuition homework. do and do only. sienz! GOOD NEWS! Wai Kuan got a bf. (shhhhhhh, dont tell anyone! if not, i will kena from her!) his bf. really good. better than last one. at least, this new bf is more caring, more friendly and cheerful. i believe, he will bring lots of happiness to her. damn admire her. at least, she dont like my case. kena hurt and hurt. although he didnt use speaks or actions to hurt me, actually do he know, what he do, what he say, what he write will influence me? i guess, he dont know it. we are not same school. thats why, hardly meet him. so, we use msn or friendster to contact each other. what he have typed, is just breaking my heart. how can he be so cruel?! i guess he dont know. people are blur when they are fall in love. he is. so do i. i dont want know anything about his target! fuck lahx. i'm not bad lahx. i have more confident after i met him. he is the one give me confident! my heart is broke until pieces. he broke it. he stole it. he have made my heart become an ice. and stole it. and now, he gave me back a cold & broken heart. i wanna let him go. i want to do it. if not, i will get hurt more more without his attention. Although i have HURTED by him. i know, i still have to live. so, i must live happily. i dont want my friend ask me :" what happen to you today?" i will never let my friend ask that question. NEVER. because, i dont like that question. i dont know how to answer. i couldnt let myself live in a sad mood right? so, i tell myself i must smile everyday. i LEARN TO SMILE. and i, practicing. at least, half of my smile in one day is real. so, hardly see my sad face. i have learnt how to hide it and use smile to replace it. so, i quite succeed xP. i believe, i can forget him. but, when?? i will him go. but slowly. and everything will become memories. my broken heart will become perfect again. the sadness, will fly away when the wind comes. i dont know will this love become forever. because, i dont dare to say 'forever'. the wind will blow you away. slowly...
p.s : never say 'love you forever'. because you may not love him/her on one day. dont be so confident to yourself.
p.p.s : ka yao, WK. must hapiie. because, you have a good bf. i tested him xD
p.p.s : Gambateh, Jane! let him go! You can do it!
p.p.p.s : i saw a guy when i was shoping with Lyn last week. he is cute. just like him. =[
p.p.p.p.s : i have started my practice to smile to my friends from my whole heart & i have learnt how to hide my sadness. so, Lyn, you can!
p.p.p.p.p.s : a hapiie looks is better than a sad looks. why dont you have a hapiie look all the day?? smile always. someone may fall love in your smile.
